My almost 5 year old daughter suddenly remembered something today.
A month ago, around Halloween time, she was going with two friends to an event, and someone at the event was handing out stickers to the kids. Apparently, one girl got a big sticker, and my daughter got a small one.
She didn’t talk about it at the time, like it didn’t matter in the moment. But now, a month later, she remembered. And she got teary-eyed, crying “it’s not fair!”
Now, as I listened to her, I happened to recall a different memory, which occurred at around the same time. We were at a picnic in the park. My daughter saw another girl playing with a purple bubble blower. There was a green one on the table that wasn’t being used, but my daughter didn’t like green. She snatched the purple one from the other girl, leaving that girl in tears.
But…my daughter doesn’t remember that.
What this illustrates is that we humans have selective memory recall. We tend to remember the times when we were wronged or victimized, but not the times when we were bullies or abusers.
We, especially women but a certain subset of men too, like to hang onto these memories of victimhood. Some even make it part of their identity. Again, the memories aren’t wrong per se, they’re just not the whole story.
For most people, this isn’t conscious or intentional. But…if you’ve read this blog long enough, you already know that thoughts and beliefs shape reality. So if we’re trapped in a state of perpetual victimhood through selective memory recall, or any other state that’s not healthy, shouldn’t we be asking why?
Through my alchemical journey, I’ve had the immense privilege of working with my dear friend Paz, and together we’ve uncovered some mind-blowing past happenings.
One of the more recent ones involves the concept of tampered memory. As it turns out, it’s more than just that. It ties into the story of reincarnation as well.
For starters, one of the biggest curses on our memories is the curse of not believing it’s possible for our memories to be cursed or tampered with.
Makes sense right? If we don’t believe it’s possible, then we’ll never look into it. And…this article is being written precisely to counter that belief.
Second, some people have past life memories or can tap into the memories of other objects and beings. But most humans don’t. Which makes the ones who do appear crazy and delusional, sometimes even judged, attacked, and/or isolated.
But what if it wasn’t meant to be like this? What if all of us are meant to remember our past lives?
Yikes, some would say. I’m not sure I want to remember. Too much of a burden. Ignorance is bliss. The memories from this life are already heavy enough.
Fair enough. But here is where that logic breaks down. Most of us also don’t like to start over from scratch. Imagine you worked hard and gained a solid reputation, sizable monetary savings, and a quality network and connections. Then suddenly overnight it’s taken from you. You’re told to start over. Then, when you’ve built something up again, same deal repeats. Start over from nothing. You don’t get to ask why, don’t get any say in the decision, and of course you don’t get no help.
At this point some will point out like hey, knowledge is power. I may be starting over with nothing physical, but I still have my past experiences to build from. I can rebuild much more quickly each time. The blueprint is already in my head. That’s still something right?
Absolutely!
So now imagine your memory is wiped each time too. Sorry…you don’t get to rebuild from past knowledge. Starting from scratch means starting from scratch. Heck, you don’t even get to remember your own name from the last cycle.
Does this hurt?
Along our spiritual journeys, we accumulate spiritual merit. Just because we’ve switched physical bodies many times, doesn’t mean we need to start over each time! The soul is eternal, and the merit is meant to be built up lifetime after lifetime.
But what has been happening, is that as the physical body dies, the memory wipe also occurs, forcing us into a state of perpetual wheel-grinding. We don’t get to stand on the shoulders of our previous incarnations. Rather, we remember nothing and start over. In many lives, because of this, we don’t even start, remaining asleep that whole life.
That’s a pretty big waste in terms of accumulating spiritual merit…
Notice that there seems to be more incarnation cycles on the right side, but each cycle also appears shorter. What does that mean? Simple: we have shorter lifespans, and we don’t get very far in each lifetime.
But why exactly have our lifespans been getting shorter? Or at least not changing much? Let’s look at this corresponding graph.
Because we don’t have our memories, we don’t get to remember how to heal or even the need to heal. And then we live out our lives in very disconnected and misaligned ways. So instead of accumulating spiritual merit, we accumulate trauma, karma, and shadow. And as we get energetically heavier and heavier, our physical lifespans also get reduced.
Now…you’re thinking: if we’re mostly conscious of the period between the Birth and Death points, then all this foul play must be taking place in that other period, the one between Death and Birth.
Correct.
If you follow Greek Mythology, you will know this story: after we die, our souls cross the River Styx, ferried by Charon. There was the three-headed dog Cerberus, who guarded the gates of the Underground. There were other deities associated with the Underworld, but what actually happens there remains vague. There is supposedly some form of judgment, but what exactly does it entail for the next life?
This is where it gets interesting. Remember that Hades was the ruler of the Underworld.
In the eloquent words of my friend and healer Nicholas Martin, “I’ve been going into the Underworld today. It’s energetically cold down there. When souls pass through the Underworld, their memories are taken as a ‘tax.’”
Are the dots connected now? If Charon required a coin for the dead to cross Styx on his ferry, Hades required exponentially more. He took the memories of the dead. It is a form of power play.
And besides most of us not remembering our past lives, even our current life memories have been tampered with, albeit more subtly. It goes like this: if we didn’t remember anything, we’d get really suspicious like…why can’t we remember anything? Are we getting Alzheimer’s at such a young age?!?
So, it’s not like that. It’s subtle.
I call these memory indentations. Like if our pristine memories resemble strips of beautiful smooth ribbon, this would be like putting a few indentations in certain strategic locations, which may not look obvious, but end up affect us in devastating ways. By some “random” chance, while I was working on a client, I kept finding in her Unconscious this concept of memory experimentation. Like being tampered with in some lab, in a twisted experiment. Upon further inspection, I just knew something was up.
Hades has been doing this to souls who go into his territory. Again, it is fairly recent, like within this last Aquarian cycle minor of 2100 years, or possibly even more recent.
But Rachel, you would say, I don’t even really believe in Greek Mythology. I’m not Greek, I don’t resonate with it at all. Yes…maybe you’re Mexican, Russian, Chinese, Egyptian, Australian, Nigerian, Native American, Irish…etc. But I think we can agree that all ancient cultures, have some form of story about the Underworld and its ruler. Hades is just a name. What’s more important, that these Underworld lords share, as based on my previous post’s image of the soul fragment makeups, is that their two dominant fragments are Purpose and Discovery.
What exactly did Hades do to each fragment and their memory? Let’s look at this energetic map Paz created.
If this is the first time you’ve read this type of map, it may send a few chills up your spine. It certainly did for me.
First, this map has been cleared. This is the kind of work we do day after day. Does this mean all the problems with memories have been solved? Of course not. This kind of clearing work is done by layers. Think of it like layers of an onion. This is one layer. It takes repeated peeling to be effective. Just like working out one time at the gym doesn’t turn you into Arnold Schwarzenegger or give you a six pack. Same for energy work.
Second, how was this map created? With psychic scanning and channeling. The labels on each number come in as downloaded messages. What does each one mean? Sometimes we don’t know until we psychically tune in and go through the layers within each item (this will be shared when we open our Vault).
Next, I think we need to understand that all soul fragments cursed each other. Some have it worse than others, and there are stories behind that. In light of what this blog post reveals, Hades certainly feels like an especially cruel and dark culprit. If you know any Hades fragments (Purpose + Discovery) in your life, you will find them very tortured right now. I’ve seen the whole spectrum of them, from the ones who see demons all day long and can’t touch anything with their hands, to ones who feel psychically attacked in other forms, to many who have an aversion to work, and even though they are super smart and talented, just can’t keep a job (or any type of consistent work pattern) because they can’t focus and bring themselves to put in that repetition and discipline. And no, this is not a situation where putting them through some kind of manual “bootcamp” or “mindset program” can fix. Not to say that hasn’t been useful for some fragments, but the Hades fragments? It’s too late for that. Even the strongest medication will only provide some temporary calm.
If you know those people, understand it is karmic justice happening to them. Can it be cleared and healed? Yes, but they will have to consciously want and request it with every cell in their body. Right now, they, like many, are not there yet. They will pay lip service to wanting to “get better” and “stop the pain,” but put them to the test through actions, and they fight and/or run away. No commitment there.
Their wives also tend to feel like “hostages” with them, like they have to carry everything in that relationship, from making money to cooking meals to raising kids. Considering how Hades kidnapped Persephone into marriage, it makes sense.
With this new double Aquarian Age, our frequencies are rising by the day. Many will say…well this sounds good but it feels so tough going through it. It’s a daily struggle. Why is that? It’s because karma is being pushed to the surface. Whereas previously the deeds like what Hades did to everyone, were kept “under wraps,” now they are being exposed. Ignorance is no longer bliss. We must own our awareness and not seek to run from it.
For far too long, certain people have delayed and shipped off karma. How do I know this? Because someone told me point blank: when I’m forming a team, I choose people who are smart and hard working. And I asked: what about integrity? They shrugged: not a must-have.
I asked why not?
He said: because if you look at the people who run the world, they have none. And they are still rich and powerful, and get more so by the day. Sure maybe they are not that happy, and have some health issues, but most still live to be around 100 years old. That’s way better than most of the population that is poor and unhappy, and don’t live nearly as long.
So, among many things, it’s set a nasty precedent and perception that integrity doesn’t mean crap when it comes to rising to the top. As a matter of fact, better not to have any.
Here’s another secret: those at the top understand alchemy and magic. They condition the rest of us to be like drones, but they certainly are not. For what seems like forever, they have had resources at their disposal to delay their own karma, often by putting it on others. The control of the Time Infinity Stone is one such tactic.
But times are now changing, and changing fast. If you’ve been struggling, try looking at the karma in your life. Be honest and transparent with yourself, because this is the only way for us to acclimate to the new frequencies on this planet.
And we will get our memories back. It comes as you clear through the karma.