hi beautiful person —
i hope you’re doing well, and if you aren’t, i hope everything gets better soon. remember, you are so worthy of being here.
as i sit on my sofa thinking about what article to write this week in the almost complete dark, the only source of light comes from the fireplace. it burns on through the day, giving off heat and light for whenever we need it. it sets a mood, and we know we are safe so long as it is captured in its small area.
but how does the fire begin to burn in the first place?
it all starts with one little spark. the little click, click, click before the fire ignites and emerges in between the little diamond pebbles in our fireplace. and so long as it has that spark, that one little lifeline to breathe on, it’ll continue to burn.
until that spark is lost.
you are the fire. and your spark is your purpose. it is what makes you tick. it is what gets you up in the morning. it is what you live for, work for, and would even die for because that’s how much it means to you.
sometimes we can lose our spark. sometimes we can get distracted or can feel unhappy about ourselves. at this point, we are unable to reorient ourselves back to our purpose, and we end up living on repeat.
get up. brush your teeth. look presentable. go to school or work. come home. go to extracurriculars. eat dinner. do homework. watch tv or read a book. sleep.
it’s a routine that we want to break — that we need to break — because life is getting too hard to handle with this one cycle on repeat. it’s a routine that we need to break because we don’t feel like we’re going anywhere with it. we do not feel like we are achieving anything, however small, with what we are doing. and that is because we lost our spark.
we lost our purpose.
losing your purpose doesn’t necessarily mean losing yourself. it could also mean realizing this and remembering what you’re here for. it’s redefining your life on what you want it to be like and coming to terms with what went wrong. where you lost direction. where you lost sight of the shore.
it doesn’t take a lot for a fire to burn. like i said — just a little click, click, click.
so ask yourself the question: what am i going to do for a little bit of time every single day for me to get my spark back? what am i going to do every single day for me to reorient myself to my purpose? and what am i going to do every single day for me to find my purpose again and to have something to live for?
just because you may have gotten lost in a jungle, it doesn’t mean you can’t find your way back to where you’re supposed to be. life is that jungle. it’ll twist and turn and have beautiful sunsets and gorgeous sunrises but also thunderstorms and mud puddles. getting lost is a part of life. and finding yourself is too.
so if you lost your spark, and you feel alone, disappointed in yourself, or unmotivated, i understand. but now you realize that this may be the reason behind how you are feeling with where you are at right now.
now it is time to take life into your own hands. reignite your spark. and let your fire burn.
love,
apuroopa