Jesus neutered the devil real bad during his first coming
The Updated Rules of Spiritual Warfare - Testimony of a Saint
“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”
I have had a truly wretched week. Those I love dearly proved themselves to be lukewarm and abandoned me when I needed them most. Shocking! I know! I have written this with the hope that it helps just one other who is suffering as I have suffered. I have many other things I need to do today but my first and greatest priority is to do the will of my father, to serve him in all that I do always. I had hoped to have the help of another more gifted in penmanship aid me in writing this testimony, but I guess sometimes you just have to do things yourself.
In the dark night of my soul, an angel of the Lord gave me a message from him. "He will never abandon you", "Call out in the name of Jesus Christ". These words are powerful on their own, but even more glorious when understood regarding my personal circumstance.
They also have authority over the devil. The Holy Spirit is only capable of intervening on our behalf id we have submitted ourselves to Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.
I was not just poor in spirit, I was greatly afflicted by evil spirits. The stench of death, suffering, and despair that surrounded me was so repulsive that not even those who loved me most could tolerate being in my presence often. It was in this abyss that fell into the darkest caverns of the captivity of the devil, the torment so unbearable that death would have been a great blessing, a gift. The burden of torment crushed me more and more with each passing day. To know this kind of suffering (to be bankrupt of grace and in captivity to the devil) and hold true to God's command not to commit suicide is no easy feat. To be honest I have no idea how I lasted as long as I did, I can only credit the smallest acts of kindness which infrequently touched me while I was in this dark place. A smile and kind greeting or word from a stranger stayed my hand and kept me from taking my own life on more than one occasion.
Hope for the Hopeless.
All who knew me during that time considered me beyond saving, beyond help, a lost cause. The story of Mary Magdalene from the bible, sits so deeply within me, because it is a reflection of my own encounter with Jesus. The world may choose to abandon and condemn us to hopelessness but he never will. He will never abandon me. Even if everyone else does, even though the state of my soul is monstrous, even though I am a sinner, even though I believe myself to be unworthy of him. He still claims me as his. I do not have words fitting enough to express the depth and magnitude of his love I felt in that moment. Even divinely inspired song, poetry, and art do not do justice to the glory of his love.
Many have rebuked me because I have a tendency to spread God's word on what most deem infertile ground, on those with hard hearts, those who dwell in great darkness. Those who have been condemned to the abyss of lost souls, those labeled as beyond help. To those who have been abandoned to this abyss I now reach out a hand in aid. Everyone is capable of changing, I am a living testimony of this. I have pledged to not abandon those who are lost in the abyss, as long as they are alive and breathing there is still hope for them. It may seem pointless and not worth the effort in the eyes of most but I will always do my best to offer any small kindness or word to those lost in the dark. Giving hope to the hopeless is the call God has placed on my life, it is the reason I charge forth into the strongholds that others deem lost.
Hope for the Hopeless.
For God sends the weak to confound the strong.
The end days saints will not be what most are expecting. They will be bold both in faith and FEAR GOD, NOT THE DEVIL. The law of God is written in LOVE in their hearts. Any who teach the law without love are false prophets. Also stop idolizing technology! It’s a mathematical algorithm, NOT SENTIENT! Also anyone who thinks they live in the matrix NEEDS TO FIND JESUS REAL BAD. Maybe throw some holy water on them as a rule… just in case. Double Tap - In those moments when you're not sure the undead are really dead dead, don't get all stingy with your holy water.
Jesus Christ is coming back!
Jesus neutered the devil real bad during his first coming
I don't know if you will find this helpful or not. I too have lived through the kind of pain that left me wishing life were over and have written about my journey back into the light. Here is the last post I have made in a series that began on December 12th, 2022, when my son took his life with a bullet to his head.
https://open.substack.com/pub/marylynnshindorf/p/a-new-journey?r=abryo&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web God speed, fellow traveler.