Is my life boring?
No.
As I walk with God, there’s one thing I can confidently say. It is definitely not boring. I feel that's a prevailing opinion…God is boring. Well, I disagree. In fact I can barely keep up with God. I would consider myself an “A” type personality. Driven. Enjoying a challenge. In fact I hate boredom. Yes, hate may be a strong word, but I think it fits. I need stuff to do. And lots of stuff. For me that keeps everyday new and different.
I can tell you I’ve never had more “stuff” that’s new and different each day than I have in my walk with God. Sometimes I think…God, I can’t keep up! In the best most fulfilling exciting way. I do think in my past I did a pretty good job at keeping my days new and different. So why as I follow God are his days for me FAR superior to mine?
Perhaps that’s because God is far superior to me.
Isaiah 55:8-9 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than yours and My thoughts higher than your thoughts.”
Ok God, you have made your point.
I guess what makes walking with God so fulfilling is he knows me better than I know myself. He knows EXACTLY what’s best for me each day. God is all knowing. God is perfect. God is Holy. God reigns over all.
And the best part is I’ve FINALLY figured out that God IS the ultimate planner. If you’ve read my other entries, you know I just love plans. I love planning. Yes, the verb. The action of planning. I love it. So fun and so much to do! However, God’s planning is FAR superior to mine. He knows the future. He knows all the outcomes of the plans. Therefore, it’s impossible for me to outdo God in planning. His plans are always best and perfect for me. And His plans include the perfect timing as well. I’m very impressed.
Having God as my planner is like doing a test in school with the answer sheet right next me. There’s no amount of studying, no amount of confidence that can match having the answer sheet next to me. There’s no subject (even the current one of planning) I can excel in more than God.
As a prideful perfectionist (I love that term…maybe more on that to come), there’s certain subjects that I feel I can master. And perhaps to a certain degree there’s a few I don’t feel I need the answer sheet for. But I can never know more than God does. He created the subjects. He created me. He knows exactly what I need. He knows exactly what will fill my heart with purpose and joy.
So perhaps there’s another question to ask now.
What could be more exciting than following God?
Nothing.
Because anything I may fit into “exciting” is from my human point of view. And I just can't outdo God. He’s got my life figured out WAY beyond what I even think I may have. And God wants me doing HIS plan, HIS way, using the gifts He gives me, and filling my life with excitement along the way. Nothing I can do can match that. Again, I’m impressed.
What’s not impressive is the many many years that it has taken me to discover this. And how it is so clear to me now. How in the world could I have missed it? Well, perhaps because I had my mind set on myself and how to navigate the world the best I could. And I can say that I really did try my very best. But in the end it just can’t match what God has for me.
Although, I must admit, there are times I’ve thought…wow, I can’t believe I’ve missed out on God’s glorious plans for me most of my life. And that may seem a little depressing. But I disagree. And you know why? Because God is perfect and all knowing, he knew all along the exact timing I would discover this and learn to walk with him. So I’m actually filled with truejoy.
I’m blessed that I get to experience the joy of walking with God now. The joy that God waited for me. The joy I find in baking and sharing it with other people. The joy in seeing God work in my life. The joy of sharing who God is with others. The joy in my relationship with God. The joy I find in learning more about God. The joy in fellowship with other believers. The joy in worshiping the God I serve. The God who IS. God is the great I AM.
Thank you God for humbling me. Thank you that I am not so prideful that I think I’m above you now. Because unfortunately, there was a time when I did think I knew more than God. But God knows that. And He knows me. After all, he created me. And God has forgiven me. He loves me in spite of myself (this phrase is good too…maybe more on that to come).
So perhaps I should change the title of this entry as well…
God, thank you for giving me a life that is not boring.
So here it is.
Blog entry Four.
Follow God and Bake from your Heart,
Ellie
