Living is not static and one of the guarantees in living life is changes. Changes I've lived with:
▪︎From young to older, and realizing maturing and time-produced hindsight have advantages.
▪︎A higher education opportunity at a 2-year college; less than I wanted, more than I'd had before, and a wonderful horizon expansion.
▪︎During my college experience, I wrote an English 101 paper about Anwar Sadat; it was a small paper that was an enormous grace of good for me. I learned about Anwar Sadat's compassion for others, his courage for the People of Egypt, and how his wisdom about peace came through in his courageous and good character acts for peace with Israel and Jews. I learned that the negative criticism I'd heard for years about Jimmy Carter was not who he is; he's a really good guy and he lived good in his political life.
▪︎From my adolescence to my 50's I experienced five-5-significant spiritual changes, some of it traumatizing, and during those changes I began to live life with brain injury. With the benefit of hindsight, I can confidently say all of those changes were a bit of a yo-yo🪀 and produced completely unexpected detours in my life.
▪︎In my childhood my family lost my younger brother, Scotty. We were forever changed. That was almost 50 years ago. A family never fully recovers from such a change.
▪︎As the years have gone by, I learned more and more about our world and others, past and present, and I realized we all change as we live our years. Life is not static, and we are not static; life changes, and so do each of us.
▪︎After almost 20 years of living with a particular set of traumas, mixed with anger and (as I realized later) repetitive trauma trigger episodes specific to these events--resulting from events when I was in a racially mixed relationship--in September 2013, after I read a news article penned by a professor (from a college in Atlanta, I believe) in the Birmingham News, my anger completely and forever evaporated. This change did not solve this set of my traumas, but the anger was gone, and that was a relief.
▪︎After our Blessed Author rescued me in 2018, I began my fifth (and final) spiritual journey. I began calling to our Blessed Author by the name of Great Spirit, and I began learning from Great Spirit about many of the preceding changes; there were a lot of answers in those early lessons. By the time I'd started writing the Blessed Document in 2019, I finally found something I'd not been able to find before: Forgiveness, meaning forgiveness from me for others. Trauma can get in the way of forgiveness (as I've learned, this is normal and accommodated by Great Spirit), and that was part of why I'd not been able to find it before. What is forgiveness? Answer: It is complicated. Anyone I haven't forgiven? Of course, primarily the betrayer--permanently, justly and righteously unforgiven by God--and Betrayal co-defendants (the betrayer would not have been able to do most of the Betrayal injustices of recent years without them and their Betrayal participations), particularly recalling the consistent special opportunities each had to exit and stop these participations, and their persistent refusals to change course and stop.
▪︎Who did I forgive? Almost everyone. There are two people who have been on my mind during recent years; there had been conflicts between me and each of them, and my traumas were a particular part of these difficulties; I'd moved on with my life, but these difficulties didn't go away. And in 2019, into my life came healing waves of forgiveness. A couple of years or more ago, I was able to start a renewed healed relationship with one of these people. For more than a year I have been learning how special this person is; they are always helping someone else. A steady stream of compassion, kindness and grace from this person to many others. I give humble gratitude to Great Spirit for these graces of goodness and healing.
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Carol Etta Kelso
Prophet, Charging Complainant (against the betrayer), the Petitioner (Advocate Defender), author of the charging document (subtitled the Blessed Document)