What I want from this life is to be happy
The search for satisfaction is sometimes distressing and very frustrating, but being happy is still the great pursuit of the moment
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For a few years now, being happy has been a constant quest. Frustrating many times, it's true, it's an endless fall and rise. However, there's no other way but to get up, shake the dust, and keep going. They say this is intelligence and resilience.
There are times when I wonder if it's not stupidity. But I keep walking, some days in long strides, others dragging me along like a snail. I've heard it said that it's with the falls that we learn and when we get up we come back stronger. Now I can't say, except what I want from this life is to be happy.
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I want to be happy, whatever that means
At this very moment that I am writing this text, without any logic, my chest tightens, with the feeling of having a knot in the pit of my stomach. With a feeling of sadness and frustration that I cannot quantify. However, deep down I am sure, in this life what matters is to be happy and I will try.
Appreciate the finer things in life;
Spend more time with people who are dear to me;
Exercise more often;
Practice gratitude and positive thinking to be happy.
Also, in the future, I'll be sitting in a hut or something like that in the middle of nature and laughing at the situation, these days of anguish and anxiety don't seem to end. In other words, the desire to cry and not get out of bed, with the feeling that all the effort is being in vain. Maybe it's the fear of Old Fernando coming up from the cellar and taking his place back.
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Appreciate the good things in life
I could be writing, who has met me before, noticed my transformation, and knows the effort I've been making. However, they only saw a part, they have no idea of the daily struggle to get me up and smile.
The effort is herculean to leave that pessimist of yesteryear, where he only visualized the glass as half empty, not imposing his will again. The mantra is to appreciate the finer things in life, and there are many, I know there are.
“I am trying, and how am I!”
As my friend and My Coach would say, “look in the rearview mirror on the right what is your change from the last few years to today, no need to look back there, 20 or 30 years”. It feels like an occult force forcing me to look only in the left-hand rearview mirror, which takes me farther into the past still.
Spending more time with people I care about
This is an indisputable truth, moving away from those people who add nothing, and live a fantasy that the world revolves around their own navel. On the contrary, investing more time with individuals who can, through their lives and experiences, show paths that we do not visualize, even though they are right in front of our noses.
According to the Educação Livre website, in an article by Fernando Felix, the phrase “you are the average of the 5 people you spend the most time with” was authored by the speaker and consultant Jim Rohn. If it really is or not, I don't know and I'm not going to spend the few neurons I have left looking for truth. You and Mr. Felix understand each other.
What I've noticed: The more you pursue these five people, the lonelier you get. Smaller is the number of people you can talk to without having to listen to jokes or pejorative things when they already conclude that it won't work.
I know, it's been confusing so far. You may be one of the people to form the average upfront, otherwise, I know you might not have even made it this far.
Exercise more often
Do you know what's the funniest thing? Not for me, of course, but for the group that is down there on the cliff just hoping to see the fall and the damage, that I know the benefits of physical activity. As well as the positive effects it causes on human life: self-esteem, health, and well-being.
However, at night I schedule my entire day, including putting the time for exercise into the tasks to be performed. That is, the expectation is one, the reality quite another. Result: half of the things unfulfilled, zero productivity.
They say that's characteristic of my sign, but fuck it, I don't believe that. Also, I believe that dealing with myself is not easy: humor and excitement fluctuate with the wind.
Practicing gratitude and positive thinking to be happy
There's one thing I'm proud of. In other words, practicing gratitude was something I forced myself to do, even though at the beginning after saying thank you, I said: “what a ridiculous thing”. However, over time this action became automatic from small to large achievements.
“I also know that much greater achievements are to come”
The one with positive thinking is an exercise that has not yet entered automaticity. Obviously, four years ago this possibility did not even exist, despite thinking I was the most realistic citizen on the planet. But who was nothing more than a person who complained too much and also a pessimist as fuck.
Believe it or not, it wasn't once or twice that I fell asleep irritated with myself, or the other me as you like to say. I stopped now to think, with a little less tightness in my chest than at the beginning of this text, and I conclude that people supported me heroically. I don't know if I would have the same patience and compassion because I was insufferable.
And you, do you also have this feeling that it's one thing, but in reality, it's another? That is, are you the darling of the group, does everyone insist on being on your side?
For the general joy of the nation, I say goodbye
Warn the people who are down there under the cliff waiting for me to crash on the ground, that this text is not a farewell letter. They can pick up their things and go home to watch their favorite series or football on TV.
I decided to look up, on the edge of the cliff, and I saw that there are few, but good ones, extending their hand to me. So I'll stay up here a little while longer. In addition, once again I was sure of the power of writing, an ending with a heart and soul more peaceful and at peace than when I started writing this text.
My internal monsters have calmed down for now and the certainty that being happy is not an option, it is one of the goals. I'm going to get everything that's rightfully mine and is waiting for me. And if you want to be part of what will make up the average, including in the comments section, you are available to express yourself. Otherwise, bye and thanks.
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