I'm terrified
I don’t know what happened to our world, but I’m feeling very terrified and alone.
Very few people care at all about me, and even fewer are willing to help me in any way.
I don’t ever ask for much, if anything at all, from anyone and do as much as I can by myself, but that doesn’t seem to matter to most people in my life. Apparently, they think I need to do everything all by myself with zero help from anyone - even from those who I’ve helped for free.
Now, I’m feeling the walls quickly closing in on me, with homelessness and sleeping in a snowbank with my cats this winter becoming more and more a reality. Don’t ask me if I have “family” to help because that would bring a resounding NO.
I have family, yes, but not to help me. They’re too busy helping themselves or other people to spend any time helping me. Or they just simply ignore me.
On rare occasions, they provide minimal support, but they never offer any support that I can rely on in the future.
“That’s just GinA!! She can take care of herself!!”
I have 14 days to find some support. After 14 days, there is no telling what will happen to me as I cannot drive my car very far without risk of getting into a serious car accident (due to $900 in urgent critical repairs it needs that I can’t afford), I don’t have money for December rent or to move into a cheaper place (which doesn’t exist right now - every place is more expensive than my current home), I just spent the last bit of my credit card credit on my electricity and internet bills so I can keep looking for work and find support, and I’m afraid to spend much money on food because I don’t have much money left and no way to get any more. Forget about making credit card payments - I have no money to make any payments on my credit cards, heating fuel payments or other bills.
I have less than $300 in credit left and I’m terrified what I’m going to do when that’s gone.
One of my relatives recently gave me a $100 gift card for WalMart which I’ve used for food, and $100 gift card for Irving for gas. But, I won’t need that $100 gas card because I can’t drive my car very far right now. 2 other relatives are bringing me a few groceries today, but that won’t pay my rent or other bills.
I’ve been working hard on my website but it doesn’t seem to matter to some of the people using it that I’m paying all of these bills FOR THEM so they can use my site FOR FREE.
It doesn’t seem to register with them that internet, electricity, heat and rent need to be paid BY ME so I can provide this FREE website for THEM to enjoy. Despite my direct requests and telling them about my financial plight, they still ignore my needs and use what I provide to them for free without any apparent guilt or shame.
In about 21 days, when I’m not able to pay my electricity or internet bills and my website goes black and they cannot login, perhaps they’ll reconsider their selfishness and help support the site they love to use every day.
To the people who do support me - THANK YOU. My loyalty to you equals your loyalty to me. People who support me get my support, but people who ignore me don’t matter at all to me and will soon find themselves on the outside looking in.
If you feel compelled to donate, you can send it to me via PayPal, or contribute to my fundraising campaign, here: Support GinA
To those who have or will donate or help me in any way, thank you! I appreciate you!